The Emotional Terrorist

I find myself quite attracted to the idea of Dominance and submission. The entire practice captures my imagination. The thought, the process, the practice, of completely giving your whole self to someone else. To have everything about you be someone elses responsibility. To trust someone so implicitly that you can turn your entire being over to them. To give someone all of you....... Its mindboggling. I want it. I want to be able to trust someone with my very thoughts, wishes, whims, concerns. No, not concerns. I want to have no concerns because you know what I need. All of it, any of it, before I do. I want someone to turn my pleasure into theirs. I want to be with someone who is aroused by my aousal which is caused by them causing my initial arousal. I want someone to tell me what to do to leave me free of thought and responsibility for a while. . . . . I want to trust someone so implicitly that I can surrender my entire being to them. To be turned into an instrument of OUR pleasures, and desires. Dominance and submission...... They are DEFFINATLY onto something. =]

Today I was watching so you think you can dance and I was.... Blown away by this song. It's called "You're the Reason I Come Home" by Ron Pope and it's absoloutly BEAUTIFUL! I immediatly sent the lyrics to my boyfriend and he says that's beautiful where'd you get it? I told him. He automatically made the assumption that the words weren't mine, and while at first it made me mad after giving it some thought I got over it because.... The music speaks for me. Whether it be this songs beautiful acoustics of,

"Watching you watching me a fine way to fall asleep. The neighbors fight as we both rest our eyes.
The tragedys of chemistry people dream of what you and me have found..... Effortlesly.
You're the reason I come home. You're the reason I come home my love.
You're the reason that when everything else I know falls apart, you're the reason I come home".

Music expresses the love that I feel and cannot even begn to put into words. MUSIC SAYS IT ALL The odd sensation that engulfs you after a break-up where you'e on the precipice of either great elation or horrid depression..

"Good morning independence or is it loneliness? I know I said I wanted this but I have regrets... I prayed or Gods will to be done.... The very next day you were gone"

There is a song for every occasion and an occasion for every song so the next time you cant find the words go to the music..... let it speak to you.... And for you.

Bueno! My "name" is Scarlett G. Taylor. My Name is Brittany. I chose the alias of Scarlett G. Taylor because from each of these women I can draw inspiration of damn near any kind. Through them and their trials I can apply their teachings, doing, and other various shenanigans to my life. I have, and am the better for it. From Mrs. Scarlett O'Hara-Butler ((or is it just back to O'Hara seeing as how they got divorced?)) I can draw determination, a strong sense of self, a savvy mind for buisness, and of course flirtatiousness. Scarlett was a woman who knew what she wanted, how to get it and what she was willing to do to get it. However Scarlett and I also share a character flaw..... Chasing after a man who CLEARLY doesn't want us. =] The G is for one Ms. Holly Golightly from one of the greatest films of all time Breakfast at Tiffanys. From Ms. Golightly I draw a sense of fun, a carefree attitude, she was so whimsical that she was almost unreal, she reminds me to not take life to seriously and laugh at those who do. Last but nowhere NEAR least Taylor as in Elizabeth Taylor. Does this really need an explanation? Elizabeth Taylor made a move that was at LEAST 12 MILLION DOLLARS OVER BUDGET and STILL became a hollywood legend. From Ms. Taylor I draw a sense of untoucahability((totally not a word but I mean..... I like it =])) as if no one can tell me anything I don't already know, an air of class and sophistication the likes of which you've never seen before, and as though men were placed here for my amusement. Ms. Taylor married EIGHT TIMES and has even been quoted with saying, "Anything after marriage number three is pure sport". Now that's one BAD bitch! These women are all legends evern though two out of three are fictional characters still their names carry weight. They give me the strength even though I hide behind their names and my alias. I feel as though if I continue to draw from these great and powerful women one day I'll be able to introdouce myself as simply "Brittany".

Around every corner there lies another one. Another what you ask? Another one of his bitches. Another girl who's his friend now but give it two . . . maybe three weeks and I assure you, she'll have graduated to Head Hoe number two. It's been like this ever since the beginning of "us". They always come out of the woodworks, and seemingly nice, polite, women, are instantaneous WHORES in my eyes because I mena honestly..... How can I see them as anything else? I remember the very first one, lets call her.... Math. Math spoke to me everyday, we werent best friends but you know, we sat next to each other so we spoke we were cordial. Then one day Math asked me if I had a picture of my boyfriend.................. It was as if my stomach had been removed from my body and placed in a pitcher of ice water. I showed her the picture she says, "Yep, that's the boy I slept with yesterday". . . . . . . . And that was one of the better times. Now it's this bitch named Amber whom he goes to school with and that's fine. 'Cause the more I peek around the corner the farther I can see what's behind you, and what's behind you is looking so. Much. Better. So keep on Sir, cause for you around every corner there may be another bitch but for me, around every corner is another nigga just BEGGING to replace you.